My Journey to Jesus – Part 4

In this final part of the My Journey to Jesus series, I’ve finally come to Christ, and I’m now a born-again Christian.

Throwing ACIM Away

The morning of the 7th November 2023, I wondered what the internet said about ACIM (A Course in Miracles), and there was a mixed view, but most Christians were saying it’s demonic. This caused a battle in my mind about what the truth was. I was going back and forth about how ACIM could be demonic when it has helped me to get my head around God.

In my left hand, I held ACIM and in my right hand, the Bible. And in between all my internal ramblings, I said out, “God, what am I meant to believe about all this?!”, and then in my left ear I heard, “Trust in your own understanding.” I sat there and thought God was telling me to continue on my journey into understanding this for myself and to trust myself and where my research is taking me.

I had read the verse “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.” – Proverbs 3:5-6, but I initially thought God was making an exception for me because I never trusted what I thought before, so thinking He was encouraging me to carry on digging. But the more I thought about it and the more I heard people online say God’s Word never changes, I realised it was Satan who spoke those words, not God.

Yet again, he was trying to deceive me. To try to pull me away from God!

The scary thing is, the voice I heard sounded the same as the Holy Spirit. And this is why knowing scripture is vitally important!

I then proceeded to rip the book up and throw it away.

The Final Wakeup Call

I had been a part of a numerology group for a few years and was really close with the lady who ran it. She is such a lovely person, who is unknowingly deceived by Satan and his lies. Satan tends to use these lovely people, as it makes the techniques they use seem so harmless that the non-Christian fails to see through the lies Satan has created.

I used numerology in my day-to-day life, thinking it was helping me understand who I was and how being certain ways, according to my number, would help me live a better life. The scary thing is, a lot of this stuff sounded like the person I am, and who I could be; that’s why this stuff looks like it’s working, and looks like it’s true.

At the beginning of January 2024, I sat in my monthly meet-up with Karen, and I had brought some of my numerology papers with me. As I was flicking through the content, it read:

‘Don’t push or force – work from a natural flow state in our business. We can use the years to focus on projects, adjust to phases of business…’

The realisation hit me, this was trying to replace God and was trying to get me to put my trust in this New Age technique instead. Use the years rather than turning to God. Rather than trusting in Him.

I thought, “This is exactly what God does, if only we ask and listen. Distraction is of the devil.” I sat there and cried at the revelation. Only 3 days into the new year, and something significant has already happened. Only God could do this!

Thankfully, Karen knew everything that had been happening with me, and she also revealed her beliefs about God, which has strengthened our relationship further. I’m so grateful for this lady, listening to my ramblings and guiding me to continue listening to God and where He takes me.

Our friendship was always meant to be. We first met at a business event where she was directed to sit at the wrong table. Another lady wanted her original seat as she was speaking at the event, and wanted to be closer to the stage. So, Karen was seated next to me instead (praise the Lord!). We both sat through the entire event with our workbooks open, not knowing what to write while everyone else around us was frantically filling theirs out. Like me, Karen’s life had been consumed by everything and everyone else.

Letting It All Go

Over the following week, God continued to speak to me:

I was sitting quietly and asked God: “How do I move forward from here?” I heard back, “Give with love.”

Feeling frustrated with what I knew about energy and how there are lots of tools and techniques that really help people, and how it fits with God. I wrote for a while, did a drawing of how I thought it worked, and in a meditation, I asked the question, “God, what do I do with this energy thing? How do I do this with my spiritual business now?” I now understood God abhors these practices, and I heard quietly, “Let it go”. I decided to listen and let go of my pendulum business to see what happened. I took down the website and removed the pendulums for sale.

A few weeks later, I watched a video by Kap Chatfield where he spoke about how, if you have any witchcraft items, you need to burn them. The next morning, I continued my reading of the Bible, and I was in Acts 19 and then read the exact same verse, Acts 19:19! I took this as a reminder from God to clear out my books, cards, crystals, and anything related to the lies I had been told.

I felt really good clearing them out, almost like a relief! While I was mid-clearing-out-flow, my dad texted me and said our neighbour was coming over to collect some electrical plug thing, and could I get it out. My neighbour came to the door, and he started asking me how I was and how my work was going. As I spoke, I could feel myself unravelling and told him exactly what had been happening with me. I ended up divulging everything God had done in my life. It felt like I couldn’t stop myself from talking, like it all had to come out. And of course, so did the tears!

Thankfully, my neighbour is a Christian, and so everything I was saying to him didn’t freak him out!

Afterwards, I felt so embarrassed blurting it all out. I cried a while longer, and once I’d sorted myself out, my neighbour came back to get something else. When he came back, he gave me a printout of his chapel and invited me to go with them any time I wanted. He also told me of some local churches which were strong Bible-believing churches. He was very kind and understanding of my situation.

I think God sent him just as I was working through my clear-out, knowing he would understand everything I had been going through and confirming I was doing the right thing, and guiding me towards a church.

A couple of days later, I took all my new age books and cards to the local tip. The feeling I had when I left that place was incredible. It felt like a weight had been lifted from me, a weight I didn’t know was there.

A Year Alone With God

After losing friendships, the mastermind ladies and all the spiritual groups I was a part of, I was on my own. I couldn’t afford to be influenced by anyone else right now. I know God pulled me out of those friendships, so the only voice I was hearing was His. The only family member who knew what had happened to me was my mum.

It was the most amazing year, and I read the Bible twice through.

That time alone with God, without anyone interferring telling me I was wrong, or I don’t understand, or I should be doing this or doing that, was like a breath of fresh air. It was like I could breathe for the first time.

Spending one-on-one time with Jesus every single day, reading His Word, meditating on His Word, chatting to Him non-stop throughout my day, allowed me to grow so close to Him and rely on only Him. He is my everything, and no one can or will change my mind on that. He changed me. He transformed me. He pulled me out the depths of hell and saved my life. If I hadn’t called on Him that scary night in 2021, I hate to think where I would be and what I would be doing.

I owe Him everything.

God is Coming After My Family

On Christmas Eve of 2024, my sister came to me saying some strange things had been happening at her home, and she didn’t know what it was. I told her that I did. Then I proceeded to give her my testimony, and that night, she got saved!

After this, I said to my mum, “Now watch how God uses Dad’s surgery to save him, God is coming after this family.”

And yes He did use the surgery, and He’s still coming after the ones I love. 

Thank you, Jesus!

Everything Has Changed

Thankfully, I’m now in a strong Bible-believing church and have some amazing, strong Christians around me. Life will never be the same again, and I’m so glad and so grateful for everything I’ve experienced, good and bad. I’ve learned how to trust God and how to surrender everything to Him.

Being a Christian doesn’t mean we have it easy; if anything, it gets harder as the enemy keeps attacking. But I have Christ now, I have God’s Word, I know we have an enemy, and I also know how to fight against him. Jesus already defeated the enemy on the cross, defeating death, and so all my faith and trust are in Him.

Are you ready to give your life to Christ? He is waiting for you to say the word. He is waiting for you to seek Him out.

Jesus died on the cross for all of humanity, for all of time.

He would still have died if it meant saving you alone. He loves you and is waiting for you to turn to Him.

Call on Him today, He’s waiting.